Tuesday, February 15, 2005
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mount sunshine
honey, blueberry waffles?
columbian coke shot straight to the
heart of my damned everything
in the street
on my knees. did you care,
what it meant to me?
morning blisters,
Mister blisters
never forget lady jesus.
dumb drugs
numb little bugs. bugging
how i want to squash you ,lowly.
precious, delicious,
cramping tongue twisters.
twisters in every pure light.
standing at bottoms level.
looking up mount shine sun,
shine sun. piss off, loves.
forget me not, was all i thought,
when that dream left.
murmering i cant.
i couldn't look.
i can't cry ..you say.
and i was screaming shrill,
as the house slept.
and you broke out in laughter walking
the dark hall, out of my proud life.
i regret the dead emotion ,when
I planted myself to the kitchen table.
But i knew reality was leaving again.
the only control that tied itself to me.
I wasted time building up courage
to grate me into shreds.
I hated myself for that.
And I hated them, why not?
So I used a boy. And shared
my gutter-bound tragedy, Just
to realize, someone was gonna
give me, me again.
Was in the last place I had expected.
someplace I had already been.
Still, my gratefulness doesn't add up.
you remind me of me.
oh how i love you
oh how i know know, hate me.
A lie and a farce and a fake;
x 7:04 PM
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