Thursday, February 03, 2005
"i dont know why that puts YOU in a bad mood, but hay.." and walks off..
she has no sympathy at all. im feeling strangled.
choking back words. wishing i had meaning. wishing i could say what i mean.
i do not get fuCKING pleasure when OTHER PEOPLE ARE SUFFERING.
that is why.
today you tried to make him smile, lifting up his cheeks. last night you two seemed to have a blast. touching him more , play fighting. i have become such a quiet quiet person, scared to speak. speak anything. scared to look. i want a differant face. i want a differant tongue.
you are not the only one with problems.
is it okay for me to feel wrong(ed)?
i told her today it would be okay and gave her hug , after she blew up about me sitting where she wanted to sit. and she says yeah right, and storms.
in the hall ways she storms.
it does not make me feel very good.
i know things are not good for her
i try to get in.
and then i feel her frustration
in her eyes
anxiety, and i look away.
i dont want to ever look away
i know i forget to watch the stove sometimes, but i really do mean to feed you.
make it for you.
my teers bug you.
my face troubles you.
being near the both of you makes me feel the most alone i have ever felt possibly in my entire existance. and this happens daily.
i know things are not good for him.
....
commentary....people appreciate that.
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i know there is a great ammount of hatred, and i do not know the source.
maybe i dont want to find it out.
i'm, sorry
denise ann vanwert
adam klemm
kendra
dave
A lie and a farce and a fake;
x 4:11 PM
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