Sunday, November 05, 2006
iv'e been so broke latley, going entire weeks without spending money on anything almost.
its hard. but not as hard as i expected
we found an apartment. still need to sign the lease sometime this week, the landlord claims the stove needs to be cleaned. but it's an awesome location. and everyone is happy with it.
deedee's parents are giving us a shit load of stuff.
i should be so excited about this , but i feel so emotionally drained latley. and dizzy a lot.
i am scared, about so many differant things that might happen. (but i will try my best to make the best and hope nothing bad happens) and i really want to try to get into the post office in saginaw. but i don't want to try ..and ruin my chances with living here in bay city. i really miss school too, i really want to get into college, but i still have to wait it out a little bit longer.
this life thing sucks very much.
i finally watched the L word season 3 disk 1 last night with deedee. it was disappointing.
and it only made me think more and more on how i want to feel desired again.
maybe i shouldn't of said that. but i need a true spark sometime soon. or else im gonna make myself fat again. really really fuckin fat i say. and i wont care anymore. and i will just beat the shit out of my face. i will.
no more drugs.
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A lie and a farce and a fake;
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